Life, as we come to understand it, is as diverse in its challenges as it is unique in its experiences. From the outset, my journey has been a monumental testament to this diversity. Born premature and trailing a host of encounters that most navigate much later, if at all, my formative years bore the complexity of a novel written in a language seldom understood. This was not a story marked by simple childhood quirks, but one punctuated by severe struggles: physical and psychological abuse, loss, mental illness, bullying, sexual identity confusion, and chemical dependency—to merely graze the sur...

Life, as we come to understand it, is as diverse in its challenges as it is unique in its experiences. From the outset, my journey has been a monumental testament to this diversity. Born premature and trailing a host of encounters that most navigate much later, if at all, my formative years bore the complexity of a novel written in a language seldom understood. This was not a story marked by simple childhood quirks, but one punctuated by severe struggles: physical and psychological abuse, loss, mental illness, bullying, sexual identity confusion, and chemical dependency—to merely graze the surface.

Some might frame my early pursuit as a steadfast commitment to becoming the epitome of dysfunction—a "fully sleeping Human Being," entangled in the throes of what we now diagnose as a combination of Schizophrenia and ADHD, laced with Fixed Pareidolia Psychosis. I embraced roles as varied as a Visual Artist and a Potentiality Engineer, a Way Shower amongst others, all contributing to an identity in constant flux within the infinity of transformation that is the essence of 'I AM.'

As I crossed the threshold of my 30th year, the aggressive denial and escapism through drugs, the echo of mental illness, the tumult of life-changing events, money woes, and the strain of relationships forced their culmination. It was a period stretching across three to four years, where my deepest and unchallenged fears not only guided but defined my reality. The manifestation of these fears forged a hellish existence bereft of any glimmer of light—it was the nadir of my human experience, and in retrospect, the crucible for my eventual rebirth.

The genesis of my awakening can be traced back to the significant collapse of my illusions. My entire life's script was underpinned by fear: of success, money, validation, denial, relationships, and the unquenchable thirst for love's validation. My first thirty laps around the sun revolved around the elaborate fabrications and justifications used to cloak my true self and the prewired tendencies of my life. This was particularly salient in my approach to intimate relationships, my addiction, and severe mental ailment—an incessant quest for a love that would sanction my existence.

By the early onset of my thirties, I was undone. What I had treasured lay in ruins, and my persona, my very character, had crumbled. Each day unfolded as a scene from some unremitting horror, an experience uniquely my own, endured by every sense with a persistence that mocked the concept of mercy. After over thirty earnest attempts to fade into oblivion and various interventions ranging from hospitalizations to partial inpatient programs, it was clear: a drastic transformation was requisite. Incrementally, medication and extensive therapy began charting a fragile course towards a semblance of stability.

And so commenced the odyssey of my transmutation. It was a delicate dance of aligning spirit, mind, emotions, and body—each step punctuated by the acknowledgment of new truths, philosophies, beliefs, and an internal compass of trust. The inception of this website parallels my personal metamorphosis; it's a vessel to collect and disseminate resonant findings, a trove of resources that facilitated my internal shift. The 'work'—a term that encapsulates the release, acceptance, and allowance—gradually eroded the dense dysfunctional patterns I had mistaken for universal truths. As healing took root within, the outer reality began its harmonization; thus, initiating a seven-year journey to develop this website, my primary source of healing.

Today, my existence has flourished from despair to what might be described as a miraculous state of contentment. The transformation has been deep-reaching, extending to every facet of my being. Declaring oneself a miracle is no small assertion, and yet, I embody this truth. My journey is not a proclamation of a universal path, but a testament to the distinctive blueprint of my life's experiences. Inspirati